God and The Dance Floor
I’m a very multi-dimensional person. For my entire life my interests have spanned across every category one could think of. In middle school, my extracurricular activities included every sport under the sun and the academic bowl team.In high school I felt completely at home on the volleyball court and on the stage and now my perfect day is either sitting in my room deeply wrapped up in a self-help book or a luxurious night on the town complete with good wine, fine food and a fabulous dress. I have always had an appreciation for my varied interest. However, after high school, I began to feel I needed to choose which grown up clique I would belong too. Would I choose to be a fun loving free spirit who danced the night away? Would I be the polo wearing young professional who oozed class? Or would I be the enlightened, earth loving yogi who radiated divine connection? On any given day I felt like some version of one of these personas– feeling completely at home in each of them, but since my Spiritual Evolution, there has consistently been nothing more important to me than finding out what God means to me. This idea led me to sacrifice anything that I believed stood in the way of connecting to the divine– going out, dating, enjoying great food, living life and making mistakes.
My mind and society had convinced me that if I wanted to experience God, I needed to find him in what I did not do.
If I wanted to know God, I needed to sit on my meditation pillow, with my nose in the Bible or some other sacred book as much as possible. But this New Years Eve, I experienced something very different.
To celebrate 2013, some friends and I went dancing at a few places in Tulsa. Now… just so you know, I love dancing more than any other activity in the world. Give me a good beat and a dance floor and I am the happiest girl in the world… I don’t need drinks, I don’t need drugs, just let me dance. So NYE me, my friends and the one-hundred plus strangers around us danced to the music. Somewhere between That Sh*t Cray and a little bit of bar top dancing, the count down began… 5…4…3…2…1… we all counted together. As the crowd cheered, HAPPY NEW YEAR, I felt chills, a connection to the people around me and excitement for the New Year like I had not had before. Most alarmingly, in the middle of a sweaty room I felt something that can only be described as spiritual– a divine connection that I was sure only existed in churches and in meditation right in the middle of a full blown dance party. In that moment something whispered, “This is when you find me… when you’re living YOUR life.”
After that moment I became convinced that although meditation and church are incredible practices, God is not confined to these holy structures, he is everywhere and in everything that brings us joy.
Three days ago my resolution for 2013 was to seek God. True to form, I created an elaborate list of how I could show sacrifice, discipline and commitment. Today, my resolution is the same… seek God, but I now know that in order to seek God I do not need to compartmentalize my life. I can experience him in every moment doing the things that bring me joy. My commitment for this year is to live… to truly live every single moment. I am through watering down my journey because I am afraid of living wrong. If we subscribe to the idea that God is everywhere then we must believe he is there in our hobbies, our pain, our mistakes and our moments of pure bliss. It is our responsibility as soulful being to get out there and experience as much as we can. Of course I’m not endorsing doing anything illegal or immoral, but I am fully advocating choosing to live life with more moxie than ever before.
My goal this year is to say YES… the blog is going to reflect that. There will be more sharing the opportunities I’ve said yes too and proof that I’m living my life a little ballsier. It’s my hope that through my surrender to life I not only connect to God in a more organic way, but that I inspire you all to live your lives as well and to connect with the divine in the ways that light you up.
Here’s to LIVING 2013,
<3 Katie Hoffman